Paradox

make a wish for my wish won't come true forever

It's just another normal day
I got a letter but an unfamiliar name is on it
anyway, I gotta put on make up, brush my hair,
have a cup of tea and choose clothes what to wear
"who wrote the letter?" "where's that pink sweater?"
sunlight hit a chair in my room

I had no idea what was going on
I thought "here is where I belong"
but now I recollected what I wished

oh my darling, darling, you're already gone
but I'm still calling, calling you, I'm so alone
oh my darling, darling, you're already gone
I'm still calling, calling you, I can't hold on
if a wish comes true
I just want you to forget my name because it hurts
I wish I could return to those days
the days before you came to me

I couldn't get hold of him for a week
couldn't even eat and I was getting weak
I really wanted to search for you make me complete
but I've got no energy to go out on the street
I got a text from him on a Friday night
"if I die, is that enough to make you cry?"
and I answered "you know my tears won't dry"
next morning I was told that he dived
and nobody knows why

oh my darling, darling, you're already gone
but I'm still calling, calling you, I'm so alone
oh my darling, darling, you're already gone
I'm still calling, calling you, I can't hold on

I should've made a wish tor my wish won't come true
I know it's too late

if a wish comes true
I just want you to forget my name because it hurts
I wish could return to those days
the days before you came to me